I Did the Best I Could

I Did the Best I Could

I’ve been quiet for the last month. Well, at least on the blog front. Life has been moving at an incredibly fast past and it’s been hard for me to keep up. I haven’t made time for writing and to be honest, I haven’t really been sure what to say. The month of guest posts was incredible. I have been humbled by the strength and grace shown by those who wrote submissions. I am honored to know such incredible people…

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Guest Post #6 – Travis Rohe

Guest Post #6 – Travis Rohe

My last guest post came in a few hours before the end of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and it feels fitting to end this series of guest posts by letting my husband have the last word. When I decided to invite guests to post on my blog I decided to refrain from adding my own commentary in the introductions so that you may all form your own opinion. It is hard not to comment on this one so…

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Guest Post #3: Allison Ham

Guest Post #3: Allison Ham

Those 5 words The day was pretty dreary for a July day in Colorado.  It was July 7th.  That day my life would completely take a 180 and change forever.  That afternoon I had a doctor’s appointment.  I was 22 weeks pregnant with my baby girl Sydney.  I finished up eating my Doritos at work (don’t judge) and was off to my appointment to get my blood pressure followed up on with my OB/GYN.  It was pouring rain.  As I…

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Guest Post #2 – Fern Chasida Rabinovitz

Guest Post #2 – Fern Chasida Rabinovitz

Thank you to Fern for sharing her story in honor of Miscarriage and Infant Loss Awareness Month. If you would like to submit a piece please email cari@twentysixandfour.com.   Fern Chasida Rabinovitz, aged 51, originally from New York and living in Israel since 1988. Wife, mother, friend, reader, librarian. 

Guest Post #1: Grief Carny – Krista Cox

Guest Post #1: Grief Carny – Krista Cox

Thank you to Krista Cox for submitting such a beautiful piece. This is the first guest post in honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I am still welcoming any and all types of submissions for the month of October if you would like to make a guest post. E-mail: cari@twentysixandfour.com

Some Days I Struggle

Some Days I Struggle

Some days I struggle. Most days I can put Ava into a safe place in my heart and hold her there while I continue living a life with purpose and full of happiness, but some days I can’t. Some days I just hurt too much to come out of the shadows, and when I wake up in the morning I wish I could go back to sleep until the pain was over. Some days I just really struggle. And though those…

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Mourning the future

Mourning the future

It’s been over a year and I still don’t go more than a few hours without thinking about Ava. Some days I feel OK, “normal,” like myself again. Then there’s days that I still feel like I can’t function. Like the other day at work. I completely lost it. I got triggered by a patient and I couldn’t recover. As soon as I would feel like I was close to being able to get through the day a different patient…

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